by Alok nandna Dedicated to a Nightingale
October 7
An ultranationalist Russian leader is in news, and his acts are attracting me. In the canteen of Duma he has beaten the lady information of broadcasting Minister. When a woman journalist went to him for his comments he said her to copulate with his bodyguards if she wanted his answer. He is talking about the glory of Russia and wants to unify the old USSR. I am reading his news very carefully. He is going to fight the Presidential election of Russia.
Today I met a young Indian boy who is doing medical course in Russia and asked,'' Tell me something about this ultranationalist leader.''
''Oh! he is a demagogue. I have not seen him but all the young generation is mad behind him. In all public meetings he collects good gathering but common people are not taking him seriously, he is a mad.''
I am thinking deeply how to use him in the Indian context. In fact I am fade with my routine life and again I want an active political activity. Through net I am thinking to communicate with this ultranationalist leader and his party.
The history of Russia always attracts me a lot, specially the life of Lenin and the glory of USSR. Now the USSR has been demolished, and a new Russia has emerged. When I was a school- going student I would listen about USSR. I can recall the day with my father in an Indian dock. He was invited by a ship captain and he asked me to come with him. When we jumped on the ship the captain of the ship welcomed us. I was only six years old and I enjoyed this new world very much. The ship would carry the goods from Indian to Russia. When my father asked him, ''Is USSR really a super power?'' He said in a irritating tone, ''We are providing them foods, they are busy in making more and more arms. When our ship approaches the port of Russia, people come like hungry dog…What the hell is going there, only God knows.'' At that time I was unable to understand the meaning of this conversation, but the words printed in my memory for ever. Latter I came in contact with Russia through my text books, and certainly it attracted me. I was very young when the disintegration of USSR started, I could be seen with a pocket radio in locality listening the news of disintegration of the giant.
Now I am thinking to take advantages of the ultra nationalist leader. I am very serious about it.
October 7
The lady Chatterly' lover, after coming back, came to me. He was in mood to talk to me a lot, and I, too, was in mood to listen him, although I was avoiding him. I did not want to show my eagerness.
''You know, she is a very kind hearted woman. I stayed with her in her new flat. She instructed me not move in the city. We loved each-other. But very soon she realized that I was unable to understand the meaning of her words. She was very much fluent in English, she would speak like an English Goddess. If I were able to understand her all words,'' he said in one breath. With his words I was moving in the world of imagination with the Lady Chattery. Oh! really I was in love with her. In fact I was in search of such a woman for ages. A woman of letters ! Oh she could express herself in many ways, and I was sure all her ways would be lovely and touchy.
He told me enthusiastically,'' she is a good singer and dancer. She was singing whole night for me but again I was unable to understand song as she singing in English. I was just watching her eyes, her lips movements. She was very happy. But when she realized that I was not understanding her songs, she became sad again and said to me, 'on the earth no man can understand. No man is able to read me and the chapter of my life. You are also among them. I am fade with man like you.' Now I want to learn English and you will have to help me in this regard.''
''English! you must learn, if you want her,'' I said and suggested him some books to go through. He wrote down the names of those books and went away and again I started to think about her. She had landed very deep into my heart.
October 8
Today I went to the English spoken Institute and delivered a special lecture on Russian people and politics. Again and again I mentioned the name and acts of the ultra national of Russia. I realized that the young students were very much interested that particular leader. I told them that I had a plan to go to Russia for this ultra nationalist leader. He was going to fight the presidential election of Russia, and I wanted a team that could support him. In fact this team would enter into Russia and for him. Most of the young students were ready to go to Russian with me. I asked them to make their passport. Now a new adventure has started. I am trying my level best to fly Russia with a team. I am reading more and more about the Russian election and activities of ultra nationalist leader.
Today I also met the black girl. When I was alone in the class room, she came to me and started weeping. For a little while I could not understand what was going on before me. Latter she told me that again she had not been selected for the medical college. I tried my level best to console her. But tears were still flowing from her eyes. She told, ''Now I have lost my confidence. I cannot get success in my life. I had only one dream to be doctor. Oh, my dream has shattered. What is the use of life without dream.''
First time in my life I realized the importance of open-eyes' dream. Dream is the best source of life force, it was the dream that was leading Alexander the great, it was the dream that leading Napolian Bonapart and it was the dream that was leading Adolf Hitler. If you want to understand a person, ask about his open-eyes' dream.
October 9
The black's younger came to my Omen when I was busy with a newspaper report about Russian election. ''Am I disturbing you?,'' She asked in a low tone.
''No, not at all, I am reading a report. Have you read about Russian Revolution?,'' I asked.
''Yes, in text book. I think it was a bloody revolution, a lot of people had been killed there. I never like blood bath,'' I asked. ''Why are you standing, just take your place. What do you like? ''
''I love romantic story. Have you read Shekhar: ek jivani (Sekhar: a life story) by Ageye. It is fantastic book. Do you know young Shekhar loves one of his relatives sister. Oh! it is wonderful book. I have bought this book for you.'' She opened her bag and took out the book and gave me. When I turned the first page, I saw the writer's signature.
''It is a real signature? ''
''Yes, the writer has gifted the book to my father. You can read it…I always think about Shekhar. He is a fantastic character…I am sure you will love him. Just go through this book.
''I will read it latter. You know I am working over a Russian project.''
''My sister was saying something about it, but I could not understand. Let me know what you are doing, I mean what is your project?,'' she said, sitting besides me and felt a different smell of a female body.
''I am going to Russia with a team. I want to take part in a political campaign for an ultra nationalist leader,'' I turned the newspaper away and looked at her face. Over her forehead there was a cut sign.
''What are you looking,'' she said.
''This cut sign. What is the history of this sign?''
''Oh! I was trying to learn how to ride a bicycle and fell down on the road. It does not look good.''
''Certainly, it looks good.''
''Have you met any elder girl?''
'' Elder girl?''
''Yes, you told me earlier that after having experience with an elder girl you will love me,'' She said honestly.
''Yes! Yes. Some days ago I met a girl, and tried to get experience but …
''What but…?''
''She wanted to make me tame…Do you understand the meaning of tame?''
''No…just tell me''
''tame means like a dog…she wanted to make me a dog,''
''Just tell me the whole story,'' she requested. I told her the whole story very honestly as far as possible.
''You should have gone ahead, I am sure no can make you tame. I wont make you tame, would you like to repeat that process with me,'' she pronounced softly. ''In fact I want to feel myself, many time I have touched my breast and it is pleasant. But I want your hands.''
''I have already told you that you are too little to this act. ''
''Why do you think so? Just try it, if I feel uncomfortable, I will stop you, at least you can touch the breast, '' she said softly and I could not stop myself.
Very tenderly I took up in my hands and she laughed like a budding flower.
''Let me smell you first, I am sure like all woman every man has a special scent.
''First let me see your breast…''
''You do it..'' She told and laughed.
Very gently I put her down and uncovered her small breast and touching them I said, ''These are too small. You are just a developing girl. And I tell you frankly that I do not have the wild desire for you.''
''I know it, so why I love you…how can I make them big? '', she said politely.
''You have to eat vegetables and fruits…Now you are under age. You are growing girl, gradually its develop. But you must be careful of your diet,'' I suggested her, watching them carefully. When I hold her both nipples in my fingers, she smiled and said, '' These are for my child. One day I will be mother of two children and I will feed them. Can you feed now?''
''I you want I will do it, but just stop me when you feel uncomfortable,'' I was careful.
''Sure! You do not worry''
I took her one of the nipples in my mouth and very slowly started sucking it. She closed her eyes and hold my head very near to her heart. I was watching the expression of her black face very keenly, It seemed that she had almost lost herself somewhere. Very softly she shifted my mouth to the other nipple, her eyes were still closed. I was continued more than fifteen minutes.
''Oh, it is wonderful! ''She exclaimed with joy.''Now just stop.''
''I think it enough for today, '' I said, again touching her nipple.
''Yes! Yes!! I am novice. ''
''So why I am taking care of you. I do not want to fill your mind with an unpleasant experience.
''Relax, I wont hurt you.''
''I know, I know…Oh, it wonderful…really today I realized the miracle of my breast…Do you believe in astrology?, '' She said, closing her small breast.
''I do not understand the complex terms of astrology…And it seems me very unscientific…'' I said.
''You cannot say it…it is wonderful…And if you follow it, certainly you will be benefited. It is proved knowledge…,'' She protested in her soft words.
''Would you mind to tell me something about it?,'' I was eager to know about it.
''It is very easy, I have finished a lot of astrological books…First you have to understand the concept of time, then the planets and their significance , Zodiac sighs…Birth chart is very important in astrology…You have to understand the house and how to interpret a birth chart, ..then planets and its sighs ..remedies for malefic planets …Annual chart and moon chart…You want to learn it….I hope I can you help you lot…'' she said enthusiastically in one breath, and I was looking to her surprisingly.
''You have read a lot of astrology, but you seems too small for this kind of knowledge,'' I said and kissed her lips gently, in turn she kissed me.
''You know I am not a beautiful girl, All the students of my class would laugh over me…she would tell me black girl…and always asked me to do black magic…I knew nothing about black magic, but I started reading books related with magic. Then I came in contact with astrology…it fascinated me a lot…Very soon I became a good interpreter of birth chart…Do you have your birth chart?'' she said, kissing my hands and feet. I was very much surprised to see the knowledge this little girl.
''All the students knew about your astrological knowledge?''
''Very much, even the principal and mistress of the school were consulting with me for their astrological problems…Sometimes my father's friends too ask for my advise…Do you have your birth chart…''
''No, my father would not believe in astrology, so he always avoided to make my birth chart.''
''Do not worry, I will make it for you. Tell me your date of birth, place and the year…''
''But I do not believe in astrology,''
''No issue, but let me do my work…And I am sure you will be benefited''
''I born twenty four hours after Napolian Bonapart…You find out his birth date…and you will find out my birth date….now I cannot say anything about it,'' I said firmly.
''You are Leo! I am with a lion…oh! I love a Leo. You cannot be tamed…I love you without any condition…'', she told and jumped over me like a lizard. I hold her in my strong arms. I was very happy with that little girl. When she went away. I started thinking about her, but I realized I might be more happy with the lady Chatterly. Both of us could love like each-other like a complete man and a complete woman, physically as well as mentally. This little girl is not fit for a wild Leo like me. Yes she is not fit, not fit…Oh! Lady Chatterly I love you…I had not seen her but I was still mad behind her…was it love, passion or sex? I did not know, I did not know…I did not know. ''
October 7
An ultranationalist Russian leader is in news, and his acts are attracting me. In the canteen of Duma he has beaten the lady information of broadcasting Minister. When a woman journalist went to him for his comments he said her to copulate with his bodyguards if she wanted his answer. He is talking about the glory of Russia and wants to unify the old USSR. I am reading his news very carefully. He is going to fight the Presidential election of Russia.
Today I met a young Indian boy who is doing medical course in Russia and asked,'' Tell me something about this ultranationalist leader.''
''Oh! he is a demagogue. I have not seen him but all the young generation is mad behind him. In all public meetings he collects good gathering but common people are not taking him seriously, he is a mad.''
I am thinking deeply how to use him in the Indian context. In fact I am fade with my routine life and again I want an active political activity. Through net I am thinking to communicate with this ultranationalist leader and his party.
The history of Russia always attracts me a lot, specially the life of Lenin and the glory of USSR. Now the USSR has been demolished, and a new Russia has emerged. When I was a school- going student I would listen about USSR. I can recall the day with my father in an Indian dock. He was invited by a ship captain and he asked me to come with him. When we jumped on the ship the captain of the ship welcomed us. I was only six years old and I enjoyed this new world very much. The ship would carry the goods from Indian to Russia. When my father asked him, ''Is USSR really a super power?'' He said in a irritating tone, ''We are providing them foods, they are busy in making more and more arms. When our ship approaches the port of Russia, people come like hungry dog…What the hell is going there, only God knows.'' At that time I was unable to understand the meaning of this conversation, but the words printed in my memory for ever. Latter I came in contact with Russia through my text books, and certainly it attracted me. I was very young when the disintegration of USSR started, I could be seen with a pocket radio in locality listening the news of disintegration of the giant.
Now I am thinking to take advantages of the ultra nationalist leader. I am very serious about it.
October 7
The lady Chatterly' lover, after coming back, came to me. He was in mood to talk to me a lot, and I, too, was in mood to listen him, although I was avoiding him. I did not want to show my eagerness.
''You know, she is a very kind hearted woman. I stayed with her in her new flat. She instructed me not move in the city. We loved each-other. But very soon she realized that I was unable to understand the meaning of her words. She was very much fluent in English, she would speak like an English Goddess. If I were able to understand her all words,'' he said in one breath. With his words I was moving in the world of imagination with the Lady Chattery. Oh! really I was in love with her. In fact I was in search of such a woman for ages. A woman of letters ! Oh she could express herself in many ways, and I was sure all her ways would be lovely and touchy.
He told me enthusiastically,'' she is a good singer and dancer. She was singing whole night for me but again I was unable to understand song as she singing in English. I was just watching her eyes, her lips movements. She was very happy. But when she realized that I was not understanding her songs, she became sad again and said to me, 'on the earth no man can understand. No man is able to read me and the chapter of my life. You are also among them. I am fade with man like you.' Now I want to learn English and you will have to help me in this regard.''
''English! you must learn, if you want her,'' I said and suggested him some books to go through. He wrote down the names of those books and went away and again I started to think about her. She had landed very deep into my heart.
October 8
Today I went to the English spoken Institute and delivered a special lecture on Russian people and politics. Again and again I mentioned the name and acts of the ultra national of Russia. I realized that the young students were very much interested that particular leader. I told them that I had a plan to go to Russia for this ultra nationalist leader. He was going to fight the presidential election of Russia, and I wanted a team that could support him. In fact this team would enter into Russia and for him. Most of the young students were ready to go to Russian with me. I asked them to make their passport. Now a new adventure has started. I am trying my level best to fly Russia with a team. I am reading more and more about the Russian election and activities of ultra nationalist leader.
Today I also met the black girl. When I was alone in the class room, she came to me and started weeping. For a little while I could not understand what was going on before me. Latter she told me that again she had not been selected for the medical college. I tried my level best to console her. But tears were still flowing from her eyes. She told, ''Now I have lost my confidence. I cannot get success in my life. I had only one dream to be doctor. Oh, my dream has shattered. What is the use of life without dream.''
First time in my life I realized the importance of open-eyes' dream. Dream is the best source of life force, it was the dream that was leading Alexander the great, it was the dream that leading Napolian Bonapart and it was the dream that was leading Adolf Hitler. If you want to understand a person, ask about his open-eyes' dream.
October 9
The black's younger came to my Omen when I was busy with a newspaper report about Russian election. ''Am I disturbing you?,'' She asked in a low tone.
''No, not at all, I am reading a report. Have you read about Russian Revolution?,'' I asked.
''Yes, in text book. I think it was a bloody revolution, a lot of people had been killed there. I never like blood bath,'' I asked. ''Why are you standing, just take your place. What do you like? ''
''I love romantic story. Have you read Shekhar: ek jivani (Sekhar: a life story) by Ageye. It is fantastic book. Do you know young Shekhar loves one of his relatives sister. Oh! it is wonderful book. I have bought this book for you.'' She opened her bag and took out the book and gave me. When I turned the first page, I saw the writer's signature.
''It is a real signature? ''
''Yes, the writer has gifted the book to my father. You can read it…I always think about Shekhar. He is a fantastic character…I am sure you will love him. Just go through this book.
''I will read it latter. You know I am working over a Russian project.''
''My sister was saying something about it, but I could not understand. Let me know what you are doing, I mean what is your project?,'' she said, sitting besides me and felt a different smell of a female body.
''I am going to Russia with a team. I want to take part in a political campaign for an ultra nationalist leader,'' I turned the newspaper away and looked at her face. Over her forehead there was a cut sign.
''What are you looking,'' she said.
''This cut sign. What is the history of this sign?''
''Oh! I was trying to learn how to ride a bicycle and fell down on the road. It does not look good.''
''Certainly, it looks good.''
''Have you met any elder girl?''
'' Elder girl?''
''Yes, you told me earlier that after having experience with an elder girl you will love me,'' She said honestly.
''Yes! Yes. Some days ago I met a girl, and tried to get experience but …
''What but…?''
''She wanted to make me tame…Do you understand the meaning of tame?''
''No…just tell me''
''tame means like a dog…she wanted to make me a dog,''
''Just tell me the whole story,'' she requested. I told her the whole story very honestly as far as possible.
''You should have gone ahead, I am sure no can make you tame. I wont make you tame, would you like to repeat that process with me,'' she pronounced softly. ''In fact I want to feel myself, many time I have touched my breast and it is pleasant. But I want your hands.''
''I have already told you that you are too little to this act. ''
''Why do you think so? Just try it, if I feel uncomfortable, I will stop you, at least you can touch the breast, '' she said softly and I could not stop myself.
Very tenderly I took up in my hands and she laughed like a budding flower.
''Let me smell you first, I am sure like all woman every man has a special scent.
''First let me see your breast…''
''You do it..'' She told and laughed.
Very gently I put her down and uncovered her small breast and touching them I said, ''These are too small. You are just a developing girl. And I tell you frankly that I do not have the wild desire for you.''
''I know it, so why I love you…how can I make them big? '', she said politely.
''You have to eat vegetables and fruits…Now you are under age. You are growing girl, gradually its develop. But you must be careful of your diet,'' I suggested her, watching them carefully. When I hold her both nipples in my fingers, she smiled and said, '' These are for my child. One day I will be mother of two children and I will feed them. Can you feed now?''
''I you want I will do it, but just stop me when you feel uncomfortable,'' I was careful.
''Sure! You do not worry''
I took her one of the nipples in my mouth and very slowly started sucking it. She closed her eyes and hold my head very near to her heart. I was watching the expression of her black face very keenly, It seemed that she had almost lost herself somewhere. Very softly she shifted my mouth to the other nipple, her eyes were still closed. I was continued more than fifteen minutes.
''Oh, it is wonderful! ''She exclaimed with joy.''Now just stop.''
''I think it enough for today, '' I said, again touching her nipple.
''Yes! Yes!! I am novice. ''
''So why I am taking care of you. I do not want to fill your mind with an unpleasant experience.
''Relax, I wont hurt you.''
''I know, I know…Oh, it wonderful…really today I realized the miracle of my breast…Do you believe in astrology?, '' She said, closing her small breast.
''I do not understand the complex terms of astrology…And it seems me very unscientific…'' I said.
''You cannot say it…it is wonderful…And if you follow it, certainly you will be benefited. It is proved knowledge…,'' She protested in her soft words.
''Would you mind to tell me something about it?,'' I was eager to know about it.
''It is very easy, I have finished a lot of astrological books…First you have to understand the concept of time, then the planets and their significance , Zodiac sighs…Birth chart is very important in astrology…You have to understand the house and how to interpret a birth chart, ..then planets and its sighs ..remedies for malefic planets …Annual chart and moon chart…You want to learn it….I hope I can you help you lot…'' she said enthusiastically in one breath, and I was looking to her surprisingly.
''You have read a lot of astrology, but you seems too small for this kind of knowledge,'' I said and kissed her lips gently, in turn she kissed me.
''You know I am not a beautiful girl, All the students of my class would laugh over me…she would tell me black girl…and always asked me to do black magic…I knew nothing about black magic, but I started reading books related with magic. Then I came in contact with astrology…it fascinated me a lot…Very soon I became a good interpreter of birth chart…Do you have your birth chart?'' she said, kissing my hands and feet. I was very much surprised to see the knowledge this little girl.
''All the students knew about your astrological knowledge?''
''Very much, even the principal and mistress of the school were consulting with me for their astrological problems…Sometimes my father's friends too ask for my advise…Do you have your birth chart…''
''No, my father would not believe in astrology, so he always avoided to make my birth chart.''
''Do not worry, I will make it for you. Tell me your date of birth, place and the year…''
''But I do not believe in astrology,''
''No issue, but let me do my work…And I am sure you will be benefited''
''I born twenty four hours after Napolian Bonapart…You find out his birth date…and you will find out my birth date….now I cannot say anything about it,'' I said firmly.
''You are Leo! I am with a lion…oh! I love a Leo. You cannot be tamed…I love you without any condition…'', she told and jumped over me like a lizard. I hold her in my strong arms. I was very happy with that little girl. When she went away. I started thinking about her, but I realized I might be more happy with the lady Chatterly. Both of us could love like each-other like a complete man and a complete woman, physically as well as mentally. This little girl is not fit for a wild Leo like me. Yes she is not fit, not fit…Oh! Lady Chatterly I love you…I had not seen her but I was still mad behind her…was it love, passion or sex? I did not know, I did not know…I did not know. ''
1 comment:
Alok,
This chapter feels like it's purpose is to set the stage for the next one. I'm curious to see where this leads.
Lara
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